I felt like I had let everyone down: God, my family, my church, all the people I had testified to. This included my doctor who I had testified to and now I needed his help with my medical needs after claiming to be walking in divine health(which I was). It has been a very, very, hard three months. Right now as I write this; I am not working and am spending this week retraining my heart and body and believing God to go back to work next week. I believe God will help me through this and HE will be stronger in my life. About a month ago, God showed me what had happened. I was functioning in Hebrews 12:2 and then I took my eyes off him for a second and starting functioning in Hebrews 12:3. As one of the heroes from my church said "Scot your best days are still ahead of you. I have a God who believes in me, a wife and family who love me and a pastor and church who have been there for me.
I love you all. !!!! Thank you for your prayers and encouragement.
Hebrews 12:2 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of
our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls.