When I launched the ministry, that God has given me; I was just exhausted. I didn’t realize how tired I was. I was bone tired. I had put everything; I had into this for weeks and weeks. I was working four hours plus per day after working all day. On that day, March 18th, I drove around my home town and delivered personal copies of my testimony and a letter
of explanation of what I was doing to very close friends and family members. It was in the middle of a blizzard.
It is no easy thing to tell your closest friends and immediate family that God has opened up the Book of Acts to you. Now, I am not complaining, just explaining! There is a part of me that was just so thrilled that words cannot even explain how I felt. Then, there is the human part; the insecurity, maybe we all feel. The “I am so unworthy Lord”, the “who do you think you are out” and “what will people think of you” and can I take the criticism.
As I was driving around God spoke to me; it was in my spirit. It was a strong, quiet impression in my mind that just stayed there all day and even the next day. This is usually how God speaks to me about something big. He said to me, in my heart “You have given birth now; go raise your child.” Which by interpretation means; that I had launched my ministry that God had given me, now I was to develop it. Another important thing was I was to enjoy it. It just set me free!
I had been driving to hard to accomplish this and then at the moment there was a break through, and I was to now shift gears. Then God showed me this again “Don’t look for the approval of men, but that he was my sponsor, and to look to him for his approval only. He told me again to “Speak the truth in Love with boldness, and to let the cards fall where they may.” In other words let the Holy Spirit do his work. Have a tough skin and a soft heart. This has been and will continue
to be a life long, day by day, learning process.
It’s hard to put yourself out there in front of family and friends. It can be a very, lonely feeling. Some will support you and some will wonder. Some will probably think that you are full of yourself. Some may never understand. With people who don’t know you as you minister to them it’s different. They don’t know you or your background, so they tend to accept or reject you on the message itself only. But you know what, that’s OK! I can confident in the LORD, and I love my family and friends. I will look to him for my approval; after all he is my sponsor. If he is happy with me that is all that really matters. And when all is said and done, I will stand on this promise in God’s Word found in Proverbs 3:5,6 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall
direct thy paths.”
of explanation of what I was doing to very close friends and family members. It was in the middle of a blizzard.
It is no easy thing to tell your closest friends and immediate family that God has opened up the Book of Acts to you. Now, I am not complaining, just explaining! There is a part of me that was just so thrilled that words cannot even explain how I felt. Then, there is the human part; the insecurity, maybe we all feel. The “I am so unworthy Lord”, the “who do you think you are out” and “what will people think of you” and can I take the criticism.
As I was driving around God spoke to me; it was in my spirit. It was a strong, quiet impression in my mind that just stayed there all day and even the next day. This is usually how God speaks to me about something big. He said to me, in my heart “You have given birth now; go raise your child.” Which by interpretation means; that I had launched my ministry that God had given me, now I was to develop it. Another important thing was I was to enjoy it. It just set me free!
I had been driving to hard to accomplish this and then at the moment there was a break through, and I was to now shift gears. Then God showed me this again “Don’t look for the approval of men, but that he was my sponsor, and to look to him for his approval only. He told me again to “Speak the truth in Love with boldness, and to let the cards fall where they may.” In other words let the Holy Spirit do his work. Have a tough skin and a soft heart. This has been and will continue
to be a life long, day by day, learning process.
It’s hard to put yourself out there in front of family and friends. It can be a very, lonely feeling. Some will support you and some will wonder. Some will probably think that you are full of yourself. Some may never understand. With people who don’t know you as you minister to them it’s different. They don’t know you or your background, so they tend to accept or reject you on the message itself only. But you know what, that’s OK! I can confident in the LORD, and I love my family and friends. I will look to him for my approval; after all he is my sponsor. If he is happy with me that is all that really matters. And when all is said and done, I will stand on this promise in God’s Word found in Proverbs 3:5,6 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall
direct thy paths.”
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