MY LIFE WAS SPARED AND ITS A MIRACLE THAT I AM ALIVE
INTRODUCTION
Let me say this first. I am not afraid to die. I am only afraid not to live up to everything God’s wants me to be. That’s what started this journey in 2005.
In January of 2019, I found myself hanging between life and death. I spend 9 days intubated and 22 days in the hospital in St. Cloud. Before I share this experience with you for it to make sense I want to share some background of my testimony. Specifically 10 years in hell and My Dad’s Death and how these impacted my life.
Back in 2005, I was 47 years old and had an epiphany moment. I came to a place of total desperation. I had failed at just about everything in my life: ministry; marriage; financially; you name it, I had failed at it. I felt like a complete loser. So, I prayed a desperate and dangerous prayer. I prayed "Lord whatever you have to do to change me, just do it, give me a vision of heaven or hell, just spare my life." I thought I would get one of those ten-minute visions like you see on the 700 Club and I could share that and encourage people. Well that is not what happened. Almost immediately, I became deathly sick.
Let me say here that God didn’t make me sick; he allowed it because of my prayer to change me. For ten years, I had an extremely painful case of fibromyalgia; which is widespread pain throughout your body. I would also have a dozen of more things at times: migraine headaches, etc. Everyday I was in horrible pain. It didn’t matter if I stood up or laid down or sat down. I couldn’t sleep much. Any sleep I got I woke up and was un-refreshed the next day. This was a 24/7 nightmare. I was a wimp to start with. I only became strong because of one reason; I just refused to quit and I didn’t want any other man marrying Ginelle if I died. So I needed to live. If you think I am kidding I am not. Of course I wanted to see my grandkids grow up and fulfil the calling that God had on my life. I was healed and then lost my healing three times due to fear and unbelief. There was a strong demonic presence and manifestation during this time. I finally just broke through being wimpy and fears and God showed me how to seal those cracks in the foundation. I was totally healed for the on May 4th, 2018.
During this time God took me and taught me about Divine Healing; Speaking in Tongues while Meditating on the Promises; and how to be free from Addictions. I practiced on myself hundreds of times till it worked every time. Then I started teaching on Facebook Live every Tuesday for the last year and a half. That has grown substantially. Praise the Lord!
I just came to the place that if Jesus could do it then I can do it. That’s what John 14:12 tells; “That the same works that I do shall you do also and even greater works.”
Let me talk about my dad. My Dad, Ken Ashcroft was an awesome dad. He wanted to die in his apartment. He absolutely did not want to go to a nursing home. I understand that this is the wish of most.
He was the one who led me to the Lord when I was eighteen. Who knows what would have happened to my life if he hadn’t prayed for me. My parents were divorced and I went and visited him after high school. My life would change that summer of 1976, and God would not only save me but would call me into the ministry. I am forever grateful for his Spiritual touch and all the help and love he showed me and my family during his life.
For the last couple few years; he used a walker and managed to get around in his apartment. About a month ago, he began to really struggle. He asked if he could pray for God to take him home. I felt this was God’s will. So Ginelle, my wife, Dad, and I prayed for God to take him home.
The next day the Veteran’s Clinic called and said, “Ken you are dying; your kidneys are shutting down.” They didn’t want to tell him over the phone but he was unable to come over due to his health; so they did. He was kind of stunned when I walked into the apartment. He had just gotten off the phone. I told him Dad “This is good news.” “You want to go home to heaven to be with the Lord and they just told you that you are going there.”
So his biggest wish was to die in his apartment; at home. So Ginelle, who is a nurse and me became his caretakers many times a day for a month. It was a labor of love. I have no regrets.
The last weekend in September there was a great decline. Dad stood up and fainted and fell even though he wasn’t hurt; Ginelle and I looked at each other and just knew he would have to go to a Nursing Home on Monday. It just wasn’t safe for him anymore. Even with us being over there several times a day; we worked and just couldn’t give him the around the clock care that he would now need.
Someone had suggested that we have hospice for back-up support. I prayed and God spoke to my heart “Knute Nelson Hospice.” I had no relationship with these people. God knew what he was doing. There is a song from years ago called “Angels Among Us.” They were literally the fulfilment of that. They were awesome. I also go to see my wife in action with her heart full of Jesus love combined with her nursing skills. It was amazing.
So Saturday night we left Dad’s apartment about 6:30 pm. We knew Monday he would have to go to a care facility. We prayed together. I prayed “God just take him home.” “Grant him his wish.”
My sister called him at 6:50 pm; as she does every night and talked briefly with him. We came back at 9:30 pm. Ginelle said to me outside of his door “You know someday you’ll open this door and he will be gone.” We opened the door and he was gone. We called the Hospice nurse and I asked her how long she thought he would have lived when she saw him earlier. I said 1 to 3 weeks as a guess. She said one week. She was very surprised that when she had checked his vitals earlier that day they were fine. Death came fast.
So my Dad was able to get his wish from the Lord. He beat the nursing home by 36 hours and was able to die in his apartment; his home. I believe that God quickened his death and sent a couple of big angels to escort him to heaven. Now he is able to walk and do whatever he wants to do.
I estimated between working full-time; doing the Ministry God has called me to; and caring for him and his things; it was about 100 hours a week for 10 weeks. I am not complaining. It was a labor of love. I usually work about 60 hours a week between my job; and How Can I Be Healed Ministries. I take this calling very seriously. I love doing it.
Then just as we were finishing up taking care of my Dad’s earthly things; which became challenging; my mom fell and broke her hip. She did awesome. Another miracle there of recovery time; Praise the Lord.
So fast forward with me to November 2018, just before I ended up in the hospital. Then it happened. I was under siege. My physical body was being attacked. I can honestly say that this was the worst I have ever felt in my life. Finally, it came to the place I just couldn’t catch my breath. I would walk and then have to sit and several times thought I would pass out. This went on for over a month. I thought what is this! I asked the Lord what is going on. He spoke; not audibly; but to my Spirit and I instantly heard this words “Satan is making a swipe at you. He is trying to take you out.”
If you know my testimony, you know that the Devil has tried to kill me on several occasions. The Video Testimony, if you are interested, is on the Homepage of my Website www.howcanibehealed.com.
So why was the Devil trying to take me out. What is so special about me? Absolutely nothing! But the Message God has given me along with the Teaching is Special. Why? I went through Ten Years in Hell and God opened up the Principles of Divine Healing so I could teach others. I practiced on myself hundreds of times successfully as well as others. Just before this attack happened God had given me three messages to teach that were revelations; the strongest I had ever had to make it easier for people to receive their healing. I still have one left to preach.
So, I went to the Doctor to be examined. Yes, I believe it is OK to go to the doctor. I do believe that a person can learn to walk in Divine Health. I am usually able to do that. I just felt God wanted me to go in and the symptoms were so bad. He said you have pneumonia. He gave me a course of anti-biotics three times. I had asked the Lord for a clear diagnosis. I told him “well that explains why I can’t breathe.” He said there is something going on here that he didn’t understand why I wasn’t getting better; an X-Factor. I had had pneumonia several times about twenty to twenty-five years ago; so I knew what it felt like. This was so much worse.
So, why the attack now? I believe the devil (whose main mission is to kill steal and destroy) knew that I was completely exhausted and was vulnerable to an attack. So he threw everything he had at me to take me out.
Let me strongly emphasize this. I will tell you why Diving Healing didn’t work here. You can’t violate the natural laws of God for years and then be surprised if something negative happens. Now that doesn’t mean that God can’t show you mercy and rehab you. I did give the devil the ammunition to help destroy my health (God was merciful and faith prevailed) My doctor who is a Christian man once told me that if you confess you are healthy and eat a dozen jelly donuts a day you probably will get diabetes. That was me. I was addicted to food for 35 years and could not overcome it through willpower. I would lose 20 lb. and gain 30 back time after time. I am not anymore. I had been seeking God to break this addiction in the recent weeks.
When I was in the hospital God broke it. It's like he reset me. I am on a low-sodium and low-fluid intake regiment now. It is very strict. If I don’t follow it I will die. I don’t care how much you love your family; which I do; if you have overeaten every day for 35 years you will not be able to overcome this no matter how hard you try by just willpower.
I told the Lord that I didn’t have the willpower and I was led to stand on a Promise in Romans 8, and it broke. It worked. The hospital had taken off 35 lbs. of water weight. I have lost about 30 lbs. myself. The weirdest thing is I don’t crave food anymore and before all I did was think about food. I know eat healthy and love it. It’s a God-Thing!
I also lost most of my marbles. My memory was mostly gone. I had to ask Ginelle questions. I couldn’t remember what year it was. I thought I had been in Jamaica and had died and been put in the cargo area and came back to the states. I couldn’t remember what the house we lived in looked. I drooled when I drank. I couldn’t get up without aid. But that all improved. Then when I was released I did outpatient rehab. Speech (memory)-Now I am able to answer the puzzles on Wheel of Fortune sometimes before the contestants do. I wasn’t able to do that before I went into the hospital. He’s a big God!
So the doctors decided to put a Defibrillator with built in Pace-Maker in. I believe this was God’s will because of the situation. Remember I had caused some of this because I couldn’t overcome my eating addiction. A healthy heart is supposed to be a 50% function. My was a 10%. The night before the procedure there was an incident. I had experienced no pain the whole time up to this point.
That night my heart rate was all over the place and the nurses kept coming in. Then I felt it a jab-a strong pain that I believe one would feel if they were having a heart attack. Instantly, God gave me discernment that this was devil trying to kill me before the procedure. I had prayed the previous evening and God gave me two Old Testament Promises that promised me long life and good health. I began speaking them out loud and rebuked the devil and he went away and I was fine.
When I left the hospital it had improved to about 20%. The doctor said if I walked out of the hospital without it that I would be at a super high risk of having a fatal heart attack because my heart was so weak. I do believe there will come a point when I won’t need the hardware inside me. The doctors have said the same thing. They can’t remove but can just turn it off.
Since then I went to back for what they call Cardioversion. I had been diagnosed with A-Fib. This is an irregular heartbeat. You can live with it but it is taxing on your heart and health.
So! Cardioversion is where they sedate you and then hit you with the paddles or patches. It is the same thing they do when someone who had a heart attack and their heart has stopped. In this case they try to shock your heart back into rhythm. All I can say is thank you Lord; I’ve got rhythm; now I just need to learn how to dance. The procedure was a success after one jolt.
Pastor Mike from my church told Ginelle and me without Ginelle being the strategic faith/medical position that she was in that I would have died. I had already believed that. She stood on the promises and wouldn’t let me go.
Doctor and Patient relationships were changed by her. Several doctors had come to us and had different approaches. This is very confusion and frustrating. Ginelle told the doctor who did the procedure and one or two others. They agreed and called a meeting and said that they were going to doing the consulting with one doctor for each patient when it came to surgical procedures. I tell you she is force of God to be reckoned with.
I believe that Ginelle has always been steady as a rock and was growing before these two episodes and my Dad’s death and the faith that was needed for that to be victorious took her to a higher level and prepared her for my near-death experience in the hospital.
God had told me this back in October; he said “Scot I couldn’t expand your ministry until after your Dad passed because he needed your care. The interesting thing is when Dad passed the number of people and daily checking out “How Can I Be Healed Ministries along with the views immediately tripled. Again that is God showing me his faithfulness. That is why Satan tried to take me out and I almost helped him by being grossly overweight. Thank God for his mercy!
One of the freeing things that came out of this is I didn’t have to be perfect. What I mean is that I didn’t have to be healed 100 % of the time or I failed. I believe that is God’s will and possible; but 95% of the time ain’t so bad considering I was batting zero before.
As I was reflecting on this experience a few weeks later; the Lord spoke to my heart. He said there had to be an intervention and that I had to go through this experience to break the cycle or I would have had a fatal heart attack and died. I also had to go through it to break the addiction in my life to turn things around and to be able to teach others. This was a new and amazing perspective to me.
He isn’t finished yet! I know he will keep expanding the ministry he has called me to. He wants me to travel and teach and preach and lay hands on the sick.
I am writing a book now. Which I believe God has led me to do. It will be called “How do you Make a Promise come True” It will be about the 10 years in Hell; my dad’s death; and my near-death experience at the hospital.
There will also be chapter that teach on How to Receive Divine Healing; How to break any Addiction; including The No Willpower Diet, and how to Receive Power and Boldness through the Speaking in Tongues and Meditating on the Promises. It should be finished shortly.
I felt like I fought the Devil; with Ginelle at my side; being the point guard; that you guys had my back and Jesus won. I want to thank you; each and every one from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and encouragement and financial support. I was given a second chance at life and I intend to walk it out to the fullest in Jesus.
The next four weeks I will be teaching on some areas that I am super excited about. God continues to sharpen the revelation he has given me. Next week I will be sharing about the “Unlocking the Power.” This is the third message in a three-part series that I know get to finish. The following week I will be sharing on “The X-Factor.” The third week I will be teaching on a revelation that God gave me just a few weeks ago after I got out of the hospital . I believe it contains the greatest understand of Divine Healing and really getting any promise to work. It is called “How to Germinate a Seed that can heal you.” The fourth week I will be teaching on How to Bread Addictions-Including the No-Willpower Diet. I hope you will join me!